THIS is how i felt last night... and then I had a great thing happen...

I had to get the "Best Friend Talk" from one of my dearest friends. It was hard to take... but exactly what i needed to hear.

I was having a hard time with a certain boy that i was pining after. No, I was not throwing myself at his feet or anything drastic. But I was romanticising every thing he said and did... over analyzing each and every word... convincing myself that he would one day see what was right in front of him... and fall in love with me... and my Taylor Swift love story would be complete... NO SUCH LUCK.

So I text my friend and ask her WHY I continue to like this boy, who obviously isn't pursuing ME, or making ME feel special. And she told me this:

"Breaker, he doesn't like you. He's not going to like you. The more you hold on the more you're going to hurt. Even though you know you're being silly there's still part of you that thinks it's going to work. But it's not going to work. It's really not. Because as much as you know he's such a "great guy" he's also young, shallow and flirty. It makes me so mad that he strings you along..."

BAM. DONE. That was it for me. That was exactly what I needed to hear!

Why do we women do this to each other? It's just like in the movie "He's Just Not That Into You" (which I watched last week with this same dear friend who text-bombed me. I'm pretty sure she was telling me "Breaker, he's just not that into you!" that night... but me and my sixth glass of wine begged to differ!) We tell each other, "Oh, he will come around..." and "Of course he likes you..." blah blah blah... Why can't we all be REAL women, like my friend, and be blatantly, painfully honest with each other. It was the BEST thing I have had done for me in a long time. And it was like ripping off the band-aid.... I'm not in any pain anymore... I am SO thankful for her as a friend.

As for the boy, I'm moving on... slowly! haha